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Every time I say “this is the last time ever”, I mean it.  And then a new day comes along and my resolve goes out the window.  Motivation is fleeting and so is trusting yourself when you say with matter-of-fact “this really is the last time!”.

The past 3 days I have been on a bit of a detox.  From what?  Oh, I’m sure if you’ve been reading my blog for some time you will already know that I have an addictive personality, and that caffeine is one of my BIGGEST vices.

Some of you may be thinking “caffeine is not that big of a deal, you could be addicted to something much worse than harmless old caffeine”.  I try to tell myself this too.  The only thing is that I have a feeling in the pit of my stomach telling me that caffeine is slowly going to killing me.  Dramatic much?

The thing is, being the independent person that I was brought up to be, I hate the fact that if I go half a day without a drop of caffeine I get headaches.  If I go a full day of having no caffeine I start to get body aches.  I don’t think those are signs that caffeine is good for your body.

I went cold turkey like this last year and it worked for quite some time.  Then they came up with Dr. Pepper 10.  Damn you soda makers!  The hub’s and I had a love affair with this drink for quite sometime and after I got up to 3 cans a day (that was nothing compared to how I use to drink Diet Coke back in the day) I knew I was falling back into old patterns.

These 3 cans wouldn’t have been so bad if I hadn’t gone back to an even worse habit of starting my day off with 2 Excedrine every morning.

So now I have been taking Excedrine daily, and then sprinkling in extra Diet DP 10′s throughout the day.  I’m a mess.  I wish I could say that it was helping me lose weight, but I didn’t see a drop in the scale one bit even though I felt like these things were curbing my appetite.

So what have I done?

Quit Cold Turkey.

This concerns the hub’s.  I told him if I don’t do it all at once I will never get off the stuff and I will feel awful forever (once again, so dramatic!).  The past 3 days I have had a constant headache, irritability, and I am so tired I fight every time Hanna goes down for a nap to not put myself down for one as well.

The only thing I can think of to help myself stay off the juice is by rewarding myself with something after a period of time with none of the junk that I get myself roped back into every few months.

I’m proposing a 90 day caffeine cleanse, and vow to have no form of caffeine enter into my body.  I’m trying to talk my hub’s into letting me get the Jillian Michaels 90-day Body Revolution if I complete the cleanse (get it, 90 days of “soberness”, and then 90 days of body revolution), but he is leery of how much money I will be spending on my prize.  Don’t worry guys, I’ll wear him down.

Or I may just buy this shirt for my reward.