The Daily Struggle

I woke up to these staring me in the face:

Three lonely little cupcakes that will have to take up residency in Dustin’s stomach because I ain’t touchin them (how’s that for some fancy white trash talkin). I’m proud to say that I recorded all of my calories yesterday, and didn’t do nearly as much damage as I thought I had.  What, what?!

This morning I woke up with a pretty serious pain in the back of my knee, and it hurts when I try to fully extend it.  It feels like something is going to pop, and so I went for a leisurely walk and avoided some of the major hills I usually go up and down to see if I could loosen it up.  Nope.  Still hurts.  Looks like I may be putting the running schedule on hold for a bit to see if I can get it back to feeling normal.  I was afraid this might happen.  I’m not frustrated though!  I can still walk, therefore I will still be doing some walking for exercise, and until it’s feeling 100% I will have to be watching my calorie intake like a hawk.

I can say that I have had a successful week of tracking these last seven days and I am curious to see what the scale will say tomorrow.  I have not weighed myself all week, and I will see if that has made any difference in the numbers tomorrow morning.  I do know that I haven’t had my Thyroid medication in almost two weeks (because I am lazy and didn’t get it refilled, and then there were no refills on it, blah, blah, blah), and unfortunately I do think that it will have an effect on my weigh in.  But that’s ok.  I’m in a good mind-set right now and I’m ready to face the numbers good or bad.

As far as my daily struggle goes, here it is:

No, not that adorable child that won’t eat hardly anything (her stomach must really be the size of her fist).  It’s all of that extra food that is on her plate. I don’t know about you, but I hate wasting the food I have prepared, and I have had to change my mind-set real quick.  Hanna eats pretty much anything I put in front of her, but she never finishes it.  I’ve even tried making smaller portions, but she will just eats less.  Weird, I know.

One of the hardest parts of my day is not finishing her plate of food.  I have to immediately throw it down the garbage disposal or else into my tummy (and onto my tummy) it goes.

Although, I will say it gets a little easier everyday.

What is your daily struggle?

WIAW: Quarter Time Travel

A few days a go my hub’s held two quarters in each hand.  He posed the question “What if you could time travel to any date that was on a coin you were holding?”.  I told him it depended what year it was.  The one he was holding was from 1997, and I told him I would go back and visit that summer in a heartbeat.  That was the year I graduated, and was probably one of the best summer’s of my life.  All of my friends worked at the same place and we got off at noon everyday.  We spent our days rollerblading through the canyon and sunbathing at the community pool where one of my besties was lifeguarding.  Yes, it was definitely a summer to remember.

Today is my 33rd birthday (shameless plug I know).  I loved waking up and having gobs of birthday notifications from facebook on my phone.  Even though they feel a little obligatory, I can’t help but feel loved as the center of attention for the day.

Although, Wednesday is kind of a bummer of a day to celebrate a birthday.  It is also a bit of a bummer when you are trying to restrict your calories so you stay on track with your weight loss, and I’ve been doing pretty awesome so far, so I don’t want to sabotage it.

By a happy accident, I invited a friend over for a BBQ tonight, and so there will be a small celebration.  When I told my friend that it was going to be my birthday she asked me what kind of cake I wanted.  I very specifically told her I like butter yellow cake with fudgy chocolate homemade frosting, and they need to be cupcakes so I will only eat one.  What good friends I have to put up with my very specific and high maintenance requests!

I’m planning those calories into my day, and then my hub’s and I are going out for sushi this weekend to celebrate my birthday!

Anyway, enough about me, let’s talk about what I HAVE been eating!  Thank you Jenn over at Peas and Crayons for letting me shamelessly plug my birthday out to the blog world!

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I know this is an old button, but I can’t find the one I usually use, and I’m too lazy to download another.

On Tuesday morning I was itching for some sort of bready goodness that included syrup so I decided to make some healthy french toast.

This breakfast totally satisfied my craving and left me feeling that right amount of full.  To make these french toast I used:

  • Orowheat 10 grain bread
  • Unsweetened almond milk
  • egg whites
  • cinnamon

Then I topped them with fresh strawberries, 2 tablespoons of plain greek yogurt, and 1/4 a cup maple syrup.  They were awesome!

I went out for my morning hilly walk and did some circuit training at my house, and then I drank some of this Fitmixer drink to help repair my damaged muscles.

I’ll be truthful and say that I probably won’t by this drink again.  It says that helps with energy for your workouts, but I don’t feel it, and the drink is so sweet that I have to dilute it in 32 oz’s of water so I don’t get a sweetener headache.  I don’t know if it is really helping anything either.  Maybe I’m using it incorrectly?  Or maybe you have to use all the products to see optimum results?  I am also not a water additive kind of person.  I am lucky to actually like the taste of plain water, and hate things that mask the taste like crystal light, or mio.  Anyway, I will not be purchasing this product again.

For Lunch I had an obsession I have been having a lot lately: Spaghetti squash

For this bowl I have:

  • 2 cups of spaghetti squash
  • a few pumps of I can’t believe it’s not butter butter spray (yes I will probably get cancer from this product)
  • garlic salt & pepper
  • 2 tablespoons parmesan cheese
  • 6 oz of ready grilled chicken

Such a great combo.

Snack:

Strawberry Banana Chobani and 1/2 a cup of Kashi Go lean.  This combo has made such a great snack, that lasts a long time!

Dinner:

  • Salmon
  • Roasted summer squash, and zucchini
  • fresh-cut pineapple

That extra pop of fruit was dessert like and satisfied my after dinner craving for something sweet.

A great day all around!

Do you get reminiscent on your birthday?  Do you have large celebrations or intimate gatherings?  

Weekend Warrior!

Happy Memorial Day!  I love this time in May and this is actually one of my favorite holidays.  It’s right around my birthday (and sometimes even ON my bday), and its a great time to BBQ and get together with friends and family.

Unfortunately, my hub’s has to work at least a half day so we have no fun-ness planned for today.  We are also away from my family, but I am sure they are decorating the headstones of my grand parents and remembering people who are no longer with us.  That is another reason I love this holiday, they are gone, but not forgotten!

When the hub’s gets home we are going to go to the big city and return my sports bra’s that I bought online from Lane Bryant.  A total bummer considering that I am in DESPERATE NEED of a new sports bra, and already had to wait a week for them to get to me!  Although, the active tank top I bought fits, and it is a size smaller than what I have been wearing so, yay!

I Killed This Weekend

This is the first time in a LONG time that I kept on my eating plan for the entire weekend.  This may not be a big deal to some, but for me it is HUGE!  Hopefully it will make a difference come Friday when I weigh in.  I weighed and measured everything I ate, and when we went out for lunch on Saturday I got a salad with no cheese and fat-free dressing.  I was eating to live, not living to eat.

I stuck to my running schedule, and I am proud to say that I did ALL of my runs outside!  The difference between the treadmill and the pavement is like night and day.  It feels freeing to have my lungs and legs pumping and I’m happy to report that my times have gotten better, and better all week.  They are by small numbers, but progression is the name of the game and I can’t wait to see my progress in the upcoming months.

Also, I’m switching my weigh in day to Friday.  My little monster has gotten quite vocal about me being on the computer while she is awake, so I’ve decided to cut back on posting a bit, and only post on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday.  Monday will include goals for the week and my workout plan, Wednesday will be What I Ate Wednesday (I love those posts and will never give them up), and Friday, which will be a weigh in and hopefully some inspiration to get me though the weekend.

This week is pretty much more of the same with my workouts.  Running on M,W,F,S, and then a 60 minute walk followed by a 20 minute strength training session on T, TH.

I’m hoping to see a bit of a difference on the scale this week.  I have decreased my workouts to under 1 hour, and have stuck to 1400 calories a day.  I’m trying really hard to not eat back any calories that I have burned, but in order to do this I’ve had to cut some of my workout so that I wasn’t constantly hungry.  Seems to be working so far!

Have a great Memorial Day everyone!

I Was Expecting This, but That Doesn’t Mean It’s Not Frustrating

Starting Weight: 282.8

Get to Fifty in Sixty Starting Challenge Weight (April 30, 2012): 257.2

Last weigh in: 254.2

This Week’s Weigh in: 254.2

Total Loss: 0

Total Overall Loss: 28.6

I am trying to get out of my head this week.  I immediately want to change something up, or tweak a few things.  I do know that I do need to watch my eating more carefully.  ALWAYS WITH THE EATING!

I will say that this would be one of those times where I know that there are other things contributing to me not losing anything and it seems I could go on, and on with excuse after excuse, but I’m just going to keep on chugging away.

I’m going to continue on with my exercise regimen because I am liking the way I feel and my muscles are STILL VERY SORE from Tuesday’s workout (some of the not losing is due to water retention from repairing muscles), and I can see a difference in my body, which is another reason why you can’t always trust the scale.

But I can’t help be a little frustrated considering I am sick of being in the 250′s.  I am dying to see a new number, and I am tired of bouncing around the same 5 pounds.

So this next week will be a focus on eating the right foods, tracking everything, and getting my weekend eating under control. I may will be doing stat post’s at night to keep myself honest.

Have a Happy Thursday everyone!

WIAW: Lot’s of Food!

There was a lot going on yesterday, it seemed, and my eating got a little out of control.  I did have some victories though so let’s get right to it!  Thanks to Jenn over at Peas & Crayons for hosting this fun event every week!

Breakfast:  I have had an obsession lately with this beautiful combo:

Chobani 2& strawberry banana, Kashi Go Lean, and sliced strawberries.  It fills me up and I stay full for a few hours.  If we run out of strawberries before the week is over, it will be a travesty (for both Hanna and I).

Since I ate breakfast at 7, and then worked out for almost an hour and a half I was famished by the time 11:00 rolled around so I made myself a protein shake to get those muscles to start repairing (I am SO STIFF today btw, if you want a great at home workout check out the TONE ZONE from workout post last Monday. Very good).  This was probably one of the GREENEST smoothies I have drunk to date.

In the mix:

  • 1 1/4 cup Orange Juice
  • Scoop of Vanilla Pea Protein Powder
  • Frozen mangoes
  • Half a frozen banana
  • about 3 cups of kale
Here is the picture I took of my drink with Hanna enjoying her smoothie in the back ground:
Hanna’s weight has held steady for the past 3 Dr.’s visits and they want her to gain weight because she is tiny.  They suggested Dr. Udo’s flax oil to plump her up.  I make her a smoothie everyday that has about 400 calories in it, and she LOVES them!  Oh what it would be like to actually have to GAIN weight (grass is always greener, right?).
Lunch was a mish-mash of a few things, but a few delicious things at that!

I had leftover chickpea and avocado salad on celery, sliced apples, and a smoked mozzeralla chicken sausage with brown mustard.  Every bite hit the spot.

We were haveing the missionaries over for dinner from our church and so I had to make a meal that guys would enjoy, and dessert, you can’t let them leave without satisfying that sweet tooth!  So I made cookies:

My hub’s was suppose to take them to work with him today, but they are still sitting on the counter.  Looks like into the freezer they will be going!  Out of sight, out of mind! NSV: Usually I end up eating half of the dough before I even cook these little buggers, but yesterday I took one taste (to make sure they turned out okay), and then stopped.  It turns out when a cookie recipe says it makes 4 dozen it really does if you don’t eat all the batter first!

Dinner:  I kind of fell apart at dinner.  Not that I ate a tone of food or anything, but I lost track of everything I was eating and didn’t end up tracking it.  Luckily, I exercised enough yesterday that I shouldn’t see a gain or anything, but the point is to exercise to LOSE weight not so that I maintain!

I ate one serving of everything and then went back for 1 more piece of garlic bread (garlic bread is the devil!).  I had two cookies for dessert and then I called it a night.

I don’t know what tomorrow’s weigh in will bring.  I do know that I am retaining a lot of water from sore muscles, and all the bread I ate yesterday may take a couple of days to come off, but I’m ready to face it no matter what the scale says.

Any memorable eats for you lately?

 

Ready, Set, GO!

This morning I woke up with motivation in my bones, which is a good thing because I have big plans this week!  I took a moment last night to map out my workout this week, and I am ready to get on it!  Here is what it looks like:

Monday: 40 Minute morning walk w/Hanna.  In the afternoon I have a date with the treadmill for a Running for Weight loss Program.  10 Minute walk, 10 minutes alternating between walking/running and then a 5 minute cool down.  Remaining 35 minutes on the Elliptical

Tuesday: 60 Minute morning walk w/Hanna.  Then I will be trying out the “tone zone” exercises that the Running for Weight Loss program suggests.  Plus I can do it from home (since I have all the equipment) which means I only have to get sweaty once a day instead of twice a day like I have been doing.

Wednesday: 40 Minute morning walk w/Hanna.  Afternoon: Running for Weight Loss, walk 10 minutes, alternate walking/running for next 12 minutes walk for 3 minutes.  Remaining 35 minutes on the elliptical.

Thursday: 60 Minute walk w/Hanna.  Then “Rock Solid Abs” from the Women’s Health Website.

Friday: 40 Minute walk w/Hanna.  Afternoon: Running For Weight Loss program, Walk 10 minutes, next 12 minutes alternate walk/run every other minute, walk 3 minutes.

Saturday: Outside run w/Running for Weight Loss program.  Walk 8 Minutes, Next 15 minutes alternating walking/running for 2 minutes each, walk the rest of the walk for 35 minutes.

Sunday: REST DAY

Oh man, those rest days are glorious.

First Day Running Outside in How Long?  

I took a much-needed rest day last Saturday and decided to do my run for my plan on Sunday (which I normally don’t workout on Sunday, and I don’t plan on doing that very often), but since the activity center is closed on Sunday’s I decided that I was going to suck it up and go outside.  I had my hub’s go with me so he could push Hanna in the stroller, and I was praying that the running portions would be on the down hills and not the up hills.

It worked out pretty good because the course I walk is very hilly, but the running parts synced up almost perfectly with the downhill slopes.  It was comfortable, but challenging all at the same time.  I’m pretty sure I got a few good stares from drivers passing by, but I think it’s because I need a better sports bra ;)  I also need to get a new pair of running shoes.  My vibrams are great for when I’m on the treadmill, and when I am just walking outside, but for running outside I need to get some more support.  I’m going to Utah in July sometime, and so I think I will get set up for shoes at a running shop where they can actually analyze my stride (or lack thereof).

Overall Thoughts on Week One of the Running for Weight Loss Plan

I had a GREAT week, and I looked forward to all of my workouts.  I will say that by the time I hit Sunday I was looking forward to taking one shower and actually doing my hair and make-up.  Since last week I worked out twice a day I pretty much just stayed in workout clothes, or lounging clothes all week-long, and I was ready to get a little prettified.

So far I have had no issues with this program, and it seems to start me off slow, which is exactly what I need to stick with it.  I am a little nervous about running for 30 minutes straight in the 6th week, but we will cross that bridge when it comes!

I’m ready for another week of great workouts!  How about you?  What’s on your schedule this week?

When Something Gets Ya…

I actually had no intention of writing a post today, and was going to take a 3 day weekend, but then as I was preparing for my morning walk with Hanna a commercial came on that stopped me and had me totally focused on the tv:

(if you can’t view this video in your reader, click on my website and it will play there! Also, it is only 1:00 and has a great message so seriously, watch it now!)

Besides swimming lessons I tried all sorts of different hobbies (although one time I was swimming with my two very thin friends at a rec center and an older woman looked at me while we were in the sauna and told me she was the FAT one out of her friends too.  Some people, smh).  And like a lot pf those girls I quit a lot of things I found enjoyable because I felt inadequate, and uncomfortable in my own skin.

Being the mother of a little girl I hope I can find the magic answer to helping my daughter feel confidant and beautiful, but until then I will show her by my own actions.  Showing her that I’m not afraid to try something new, even if I suck at it.  Hold my head high with confidence.  I may not be perfect, but I sure do love myself, and that is something that I hope to pass onto Hanna.


Have a great weekend everyone!

Running Day 2, Plus a Weigh in!

Oh man you guys.  I have had a great week.  One of those weeks where you gain some momentum and try new things.  I couldn’t have asked for more motivation this week, and I’m not going to lie, I needed good things to happen.

Let me start on the running front.  I’m trying not to get too excited and go nuts, but yesterday’s run was fabulous!  I walked at a higher mph (3.7, whereas before it was at 3.5), and I ran a little faster (on Monday I ran at a 4, and yesterday I bumped it up to a 4.5).  On Monday I had some knee pain and I am happy to report that yesterday’s run was completely pain-free!  Just like a said a few days ago, with weight loss my running should improve and I did have a great weight loss this week!

Now for the Weight loss:

Starting Weight: 282.8

Get to Fifty in Sixty Starting Challenge Weight (April 30, 2012): 257.2

Last weigh in: 258.4

This Week’s Weigh in: 254.2

Total Loss: -4.2

Total Overall Loss: 28.6

This week I really tried to stay focused, but in all actuality, it was the hour and a half of exercise I’ve been doing daily, and journaling my food.  I have tracked every piece of food that has entered my mouth, and it has paid off.  If you want to see exactly what I’m eating my food journal is public on Myfitnesspal and my user name is carrieseals.

As for the exercise.  I am not the kind of person who can walk for 30 minutes a day and see a loss.  I think I’ve screwed up my body’s metabolism so badly that I have to put more time and effort into the gym.

This week I have been trying to get out of the house in the morning and go for a 40 minute walk with my little girl.  I do this for a few reason’s:

  • Exercise, of course
  • so my child doesn’t go stir crazy
  • so I don’t spend more money on gas driving all over the place, and to save more money in general
  • It makes me feel like I’ve gone somewhere, even though I haven’t
I have been burning about 385 calories a day doing this, and then about 600 calories when I go to the gym in the afternoon to either strength train, do the elliptical, or use the treadmill for my running schedule. Let me just say that if I keep this up I’m going to have to invest in some more workout clothes and sports bra’s!  When I went to put on my workout clothes for the second workout they are still wet with sweat!  Ew!
I haven’t gone to work out with the girls from my church in a while because I have been spending a TON of money on gas lately.  I went to filling up once a month, to filling up almost 5 times a month!  That is a lot of money in gas!  Plus, Hanna has gotten pretty needy lately, and I don’t get a good workout when she wants me to constantly cuddle with her (not that I mind the cuddling!).
Anyway, I’m now rambling.  Have a great Thursday!

 

WIAW: Try New Things

I have had a stellar week with weight loss and exercise this, but you’ll have to hear more on that tomorrow!  I did however bend over this morning and had a sharp pain in my back?  I don’t know what’s up with that, but I hope it doesn’t hurt my workout.  Looks like it will be a day of “listening to my body”.  I’ll try going for my walk this morning and see how it feels. Wish me luck!

And on that note let’s get right into What I Ate Wednesday!  Thank you Jenn over at Peas and Crayons for hosting this virtual blogger get together every week!

Although what I eat on a day-to-day basis is pretty much the same things, yesterday I wanted to try something new for Breakfast.  I have seen recipes for Overnight Oats all over Healthy Living Blogs ever since I’ve been reading them (for about a year), and so I decided that I would see what all the hype was about.

I combined:

  • 2% Mango Chobani
  • 2 Tbls. Chia seeds
  • 2/3 c. Rolled Oats
  • 1/2 c. Almond Milk

And then I set them in the fridge overnight to soak.  In the morning they were thick and creamy looking.  I added 1/4 cup vanilla soy milk to loosen them up and sliced some strawberries for the top.  Here is what I ended up with:

Verdict:  They were good!  But I would definitely try to play around with the recipe to half it.  It doesn’t look like a lot in that bowl, but I felt like it was never-ending.  By the time I got to the end I was sick of chewing the oats.  I will say that cold oats are a great alternative to eating hot oats on a hot day.

One thing that was NOT great about this breakfast is the calorie count.  I usually stay under 400 calories for breakfast and this meal was about 600 calories (see what I mean about halfing the recipe).  Good thing I did 2 workouts yesterday and burned over 1000 calories so it didn’t break my calorie bank!

Lunch was scrambled eggs (1 egg, 3 egg whites), baby carrots, sliced apple, and a packet of Justin’s Chocolate Almond Butter:

Ever try Justin’s PB?  So good.  And I love getting those little packets because they are pre measured, and you won’t go over a serving (which I could totally eat a whole jar of PB without even realizing it).

After a great weightlifting and elliptical workout I cam home and had a green protein shake:

For dinner my husband got a wild hair and decided to kick off grilling season!  It has been in the middle 80′s where I live, and now that we have a great patio to grill on the hub’s grills at every chance he gets.  We had grilled chicken sausage, purple onions, green peppers, and pineapple.  I dipped my chicken in Dijon mustard, and my veggies in bbq sauce.  Is it weird that I have just discovered how delicious roasted vegetables taste in different sauces?  BBQ is my favorite.

There is also some pickles and an orange that I ate before dinner when I was starving.  I forget how hungry I get when I weight lift.

Here is how my day rounded out according to MFP:
Yes, you read that right.  I burned over 975 calories in exercise yesterday. It would have said more, but for some reason my bodybugg wasn’t tracking the calories correctly for my last workout.

Have a great Wednesday!

 

Running Day 1

I use the term “running” very loosely considering it was more like a very slow jog.  Back in the day (early 20′s), I could run 5 miles a day at 6 mph.  My cool down was a brisk walk at 4 mph.

Yesterday I was “running” at 4.2 mph.  Oh how the mighty have fallen.  I know that seems kind of downer, but trust me, yesterday was pretty monumental for me.  I actually STARTED my workout with a runner’s high, and it was a great warm-up for the 25 minutes on the elliptical I did after.  It left me a pretty sweaty mess:

And that folks is an award-winning zit right there.

What I Felt Like During the run

To my lungs the run felt effortless.  In fact, I was barely breathing when I was done with the 6 minute intervals of walking and running.  I was kind of surprised.  On the second minute of running I decided to kick it up a notch and upped it to 4.5.  My lungs felt fine and I still was not getting my heart rate up very much, but then my left knee started to get a dull pinch in it so I put it back down to a 4.  The pain was in my left knee, which is strange because usually there is a small pain in my right leg (the leg I fell on, and injured myself with when I was 21).

The only thing I can say is that I am still very overweight and for right now listening to my body is best.  If I have to keep the pace lower so that my aches and pains subside I will do just that.  The weight will start to come off, and my lungs and body will sync up perfectly, I have no doubt.  I will not quit this running program just because I can’t go as fast as I want to go.  It will come with time.

On the Diet Front

For the first time in a week and a half I have seen a loss on the scale.  I changed a few things in my diet and I think it has made a difference.  I’ve added some more protein and I think it has been the missing puzzle piece.  I’ve started eating chicken and eggs again (mostly egg whites).  It seems like it’s the only way I can get my protein high enough without going over on my  carbs and calories.

I truly believe that there is no one way for people to eat.  I think that many people thrive in different kind of diets, and you have to pick the one for you.  Even on the weeks that I was eating perfectly I was not seeing losses, and felt like I was depriving myself of foods that could help me in my weight loss, and now I can say that I have honestly done something long enough to see how it affects my body, and adding meat back into my diet has not affected my energy levels at all.  Which is great!

So there you have it.  My first day running, although a little frustrating, was a success!  The thing that keeps me going is knowing that I will improve.  I have nowhere to go but up!

 

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