Sweat it Out:
1 Hour Elliptical

Today, I got to work at my old job.  I work occasionally (like once every 3 months) to fill in when people are on vacation or they find themselves short-handed.  What a great way to get out the house for few hours and have some people interaction.  Today has been a busier than usual kind of day.  Luckily my awesome hub’s was home so I could get up early and go to the gym this morning.  I am on track to make my goal of 6 times to the gym this week, and I feel great because I have been working out every morning. 

Being a stay at home mom has been a difficult transition for me.  When you are working you are constantly getting praised (if you’re good at your job) and feel useful on most days.  Being home has given me the opportunity to work on myself and define myself without a job title.  When the laundry basket is over flowing and dinner is a freezer meal you start to wonder why nothing is getting done, yet you feel so busy. 

Obviously my most recent way of trying to find myself has been through losing weight and going to the gym more often.  Last night I thought I would check out the class schedule at the gym to see if there was a spin class that I would be able to go to.  My hub’s was going to watch the baby so I could go at any time.  It isn’t hard to wake up early in the morning when you’re use to getting up for feedings at all hours of the night, so I contemplated going to a spin class that started at 6:05 am.  I suddenly got a rush of anxiety considering that I hadn’t been to a spin class for about 2 years.

I haven’t ever been this self-conscience since highschool, when everyone is awkward so it’s the norm.  All I could think about is my BIG butt on that TINY seat.  Plus it was a guy instructor which made me even more embarrassed about going.  This emotion is tough for me to deal with because I have always been a confident person, but I find myself feeling the need to justify my actions at the gym. 

I’m not an expert so why am I being so tough on myself?  I have the personality that says go hard or go home.  It’s all or nothing for this girl and its something that I need to re-evaluate in my life.  This is most likely the reason behind my failed attempts to lose weight in the past.  If I have a bad day, don’t let it ruin the rest of the week.  If  I use this mentality I will make my goals, but getting myself into that way of thinking is a task in and of itself. 

Do you have an all or nothing attitude?

Have you ever taken a spin class?  Like? Dislike?